In the spirit of all the American Thanksgiving-inspired posts I’ve seen recently, even though we had our own Thanksgiving a month ago (complete with microwave turkey and dropped pie all over the oven), I feel inspired to write a Thanksgiving post of my own.
It’s interesting when you look back on your life over the last couple of years and see how much has changed. How difficult situations, at the time, seemed so arduous and complicated; taking big steps involved cutting ties, getting rid of the comfortable and easy and moving on toward the different and new. It’s been a tumultuous couple of years, but I’ve landed with a handful of people who make me feel like life’s amazing.
I’m thankful for my fiancé, who came back after years of not seeing each other, took a chance on me at a time when it would’ve been easier to say no (though my persistence may have played a small part in this) – he was working fifteen hour days six days a week, and seeing me the one free night of the week meant he had to give up church, time with his family and time with his friends. I’m thankful he stuck with me when my confidence had been destroyed along with my self-esteem; while I was unable to believe somebody could ever care about me, and while I was afraid of absolutely everything. I’m thankful for everything he’s taught me, about faith, about relationships, and about gratitude – not a day goes by without him giving thanks for the country we live in, the people we have in our lives, and the blessings we really do have, even when life seems hard. Through him I’ve become a better person – more secure, more benevolent, and more confident. And for this I am truly thankful.
I’m thankful for my best friend, who funnily enough also was in my life years ago, and came back after years of being out of touch. We’d fallen out over something stupid, and at the lowest point of my life, following an enormous break up, I was sceptical I could ever live independently again. I’d poured all my energy into a horribly abusive co-dependency as a result of my own insecurity, and I had no idea how to function in the real world. In a recent conversation, she said I’d been like “a paper bird, literally trembling, and jangling cups and saucers as I’d pour her tea”. She came back into my life during my biggest low, and I truly believe she rescued me. She took me under her wing and slowly brought me back to life. I’d never been cared for like that before, and I owe who I am today hugely to her kindness and friendship. I’m incredibly thankful for someone I know is going to be there for life.
I’m thankful for the wonderful relationship I have with my dad. We’ve gone through some extremely difficult times together, and he’s been the constant in my life that’s helped me get through absolutely anything. I couldn’t imagine life without him and I’m lucky to have been blessed with such an incredible man I get to call Dad.
I’m thankful that in a world of technology, incredible authors are still churning out fabulous stories, wonderful writing, and books that allow my imagination to soar further than any movie could. Though on that note, I’m also thankful for the technology that allows me to stay in touch with my friends and family back home, to watch all those wonderful BBC programmes, and to listen daily to my beloved Radio 1 and not feel quite so homesick.
I’m thankful I got the opportunity to work where I do now. My term may be coming to an end, but even if I don’t get extended, I’m thankful I was given this opportunity. I’ve grown more in the eleven months I’ve worked here than I ever have in any other job, and I’ve formed friendships I know will last beyond my time here. People have supported me and pushed me out of my comfort zone, seeing my potential and capability when I haven’t been able to see it myself. I’m in a better place because of my experience here, and for that I am truly thankful.
I’m thankful for the awful relationship experiences I had in the past – they forced me to really figure out who I was, who I wanted to be, and were invaluable life lessons. If I hadn’t gone through the crap, I would never have been motivated to live any differently, and I look back on it all as an opportunity to learn and grow to get to where I am today.
I’m thankful for all my new bloggy friends! For everyone who reads, comments, and emails when I’m going through something good or bad, for those people scattered around the world who check in and read my blog, and whose friendship is becoming very real – I’m thankful I found you, and I can’t wait to keep reading and being a part of your lives as much as you are mine.
Things can be pretty bad sometimes, but when you take a moment to really count your blessings, life can seem truly wonderful. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone south of the border!